Lies

He's a shitbag liar. All along I knew he wasn't telling me the truth but I shushed my intuition and told myself it was just paranoia. Well apparently he's been doing dope a lot longer than he initially told me. What a fucking liar. That's him the King of Bullshit. And that's about all he's good at. Except being M's father and that is what keeps me tied to him. Do you know how much easier it would be to leave him if he was a bad father? Why do women just take the lack of respect as if we don't deserve any better? Why in the FUCK am I still here? Because he's changed? How the hell do I know that? How do I believe him now? It's too damn bad, because I care about him and love him very much. But do I even know who I love? Just the person he puts himself to be when he's around me?
Oh and back to the lack of respect. He doesn't respect me, he doesn't want to have to be held accountable to me so he lies. He goes to doctor after doctor and lies and lies and keeps taking pills, the SAME FUCKING PILLS I HAD TO GO TO REHAB FOR.
Yeah.